Anyhow, finally got to see the lady. Explained the situation. She took my previous mammo, MRIs etc to the radiology appointment but, as luck would have it (and honestly, I don't feel like I'm getting much of that), the head of Radiology was on holiday. She gave me the line of 'please don't worry, it's probably nothing' - let's hope it is, I really don't want to prove her wrong, I want her to be right. Examined me and we had a chat.
In her favour, although she must have been desparate to get home (I was the last meeting of the day) she took the time to listen and I explained how I felt about the meeting of the Staff - they had wanted me to get a mastectomy and cancelled the original surgery I had planned which really devastated me at that time, they told me I had to wait 2 years for this op (which looks like it's never going to happen anyway) when I had already waited a year and had been told that this was enought time. Don't hold out much hope they will give me any good news, frankly. I explained that they don't know me, they just have the facts in front of them (which in retrospect might be the very point of the Staff, but I was too far frantic to acknowledge that). She said that she was my advocate, and that felt reassuring. I told her I wanted (well, not really wanted like I want a pair of Uggs slippers or the new Chanel nail varnish but y'know...) a biopsy to put my mind at rest, I definitely didn't want to wait 6 months for a follow up, only to find that the bright spot was exactly like it was the time before (3,5mm), I wanted to know if it was a problem and to deal with it or I wanted the ok and the go ahead for the op - soon, so I can turn the page. She was listening but I'm not sure that my 'wish list' will have much truck with Staff.
We'll see, won't we?
To cheer this post up, here is a picture of the Chanel nail varnish that I want (but not in the same way as I want a biopsy)
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