New bras

I also have to thank none other than C&A today!  I'd just finished my lesson and on a whim slipped into the store as there was a hot red suede jacket on the rails that I'd been lusting over (I know, I don't often (ever?) lust over stuff in C&A, but it was a nice piece and good quality and well priced).  Anyway, decided to try it on as the fitting rooms are never packed there and you can take as many items in as you want to.  On the way, I spotted the lingèrie section.  A place where I don't usually stop now (actually I usually avert my eyes and run past).  However, I did stop today to finger a particularly pretty pale pink satin bustier and decided to try it on.

As I tried it on, I realised that one of the reasons I was so disappointed about my operation was that I was absolutely dying to get out of my medical prothesis-holding bra which gives me the silhouette of a nursing bra, all saggy and undefined.  Since my weight loss, my breasts are both smaller and when I've dared to try on 'normal' bras, they ride up as I really don't have much 'up there' to keep them comfortable and stop the underwiring digging in and the back fat which was badly sewn after the op flops over the side of small bras (sorry tmi).

However, it seems that the bustier is the perfect thing!  I had to try B cups as there were no A cups to go with my back size (if you're a guy reading this, ask your girlfriend to explain this, gals, you know what I mean, don't you?)

There were lots of positive points:-
- with pre-formed cups, my tiny breast mounds sit a little lost, not exactly touching the sides but almost and a bit in some places,  but not too lost that the cups would squash and look reeeeallly weird under my clothing, they will keep their shape (I think)
- the longer size of the bustier means that it doesn't ride up, even when I don't wear my prothesis
- the higher and longer sides mean that my back fat and bad scarring is contained more or less
- the balconette type bra actually pushes up the very little that I have so it looks like a very little something
- I don't have to wear my plastic prothesis - first time in 2 years!
- I have a shape of two breast type mounds under my clothes (I tried them on under a T shirt to test) instead of a spread over my chest; it looks much neater and more feminine.
- I purchased two in the end but my favourite is the shell-pink satin one with pink bows on - so feminine and pretty.

Here they are (the pink looks a bit orange-ey but think seashell pink, delicate, pretty......

 Oh so different from my nude, baggy number with pockets that's too large for me.

Why didn't I do this before you ask?  Well, I was waiting - waiting to have the operation and waiting for that day when I had two breast mounds the same size, waiting to slip myself into any little lacy number that came my way without pre-formed cups.  I was going to spend some serious money on my first bra for my new shape.  It was going to be an EVENT!

And I didn't buy another one at the nice bc lingerie shop because I figured I would have the operation and it would be a waste of money as it would be too small and I wouldn't need pockets any longer.  Those bras are really expensive - I think I paid over 70€ for mine.  I know M&S do them much cheaper but I could never fit properly into their mastectomy bras, I did try. 

The normal bras in C&A were very affordable at 17€ and 19€ and I feel like the satin one is like a proper movie star's underclothes.

I'll be trying out my new 'outfits' tomorrow (after a dry run in front of my mirror tonight).  As I still have pain on the scars (yes, over 2 yrs on), I'll not wear them all day, I think they might hurt after a few hours, but it will feel different and I won't feel like I'm in a nursing/medical bra with the corresponding silhouette.  It will be a good step and will help me get on with the situation that I find myself in right now.