Radiotherapy # 19, 14 to go

I was early today and hoped to be see asap but in fact was seen 15 mins after my appointment.  I was keen to get home and finish preparing my lessons for work today.  One of the radiotherapy students had to place me so it took longer than normal.  He is very cool and laidback this one (and pleasant and polite) and the experienced manipulators (women) were giving him a really hard time whilst instructing him today, in the nicest possible way.  I found it hard not to smile to myself.  He still has a lot to learn.

I explained that I was starting to burn and one of the manipulators advised me to change my cream to Biafine instead of Dexeryl so I bought some this evening.  If the Biafine doesn't work they have another cream that's even better she told me.  I explained that I'd read something about burning on the internet and I was told off because she explained that most people were more worried about what might happen in terms of burning than what actually happened and it makes the radiation more fearful than needs be for most people,  and that I should not scare myself.

I was nervous today as it was the most intensive teaching day I'd done since my operation - 3 lessons back to back and two of them 3rd years, who I find are more challenging.  On the RER on the way to work, I really felt like crying; I'm not sure why exactly, just the apprehension and tiredness there already.  I'd already taken two painkillers by then (mid morning) because of the pain.

I paced myself and spent more time sitting down during the lessons that I would normally (I'm usually on my feet most of the time).  And then the day was finished!

I slept for 2 hours on the sofa when I got home after applying my new Biafine, which is indeed very unctous and gave me great relief, and changing into my pj top which is non restrictive and made of cotton.

Today I was grateful for a job where I can sit down if I need to and I was grateful for a cup of tea and being able to put my feet up at the end of the day.

So, all I want for Christmas is