Radiotherapy # 26, 7 to go

GG is on a New Year jolly in Alsace so dh and kids took me to the hospital this morning.  A full waiting room and a little wait and all was done.  The radiologist took one look at my suffering skin and reccomended another even better cream, which I went out and bought immediately.  I think this is the last of their ammunition so I'm hoping it will give relief.

Next onto the doctor for myself and Théo (who has missed a vaccination apparently and has a bruised rib poor lad).  For me, I wanted a prescription for The Cure which the locum (who seemed young enough to be my daughter) couldn't find.  She asked me if there was anything else and I took a deep breath and said 'yes, I've found another lump in my right breast this time'.  I've had lumpiness under my scar leading from nipple to under my breast and the same kind of lumpiness seems to now be under the scar near my armpit.  It's been developing for a few days and with Xmas and all that, I didn't mention it.  She examined me and I started to cry (much to my embarassement, I didn't want to) so she reassured me that it's probably not cancer because it doesn't hurt (hmmmm I know another lump that 'wasn't cancer because it didn't hurt' and it turned out to be a 7cm tumour) but she advised me to get an ecographie asap and see her again on Thursday.

So, panicked, we spent some part of the morning calling round all sorts of places which were, of course, it being the holidays, closed.  After shouting at everyone in the house and crying I then had lunch and slept all afternoon on the sofa. wtf I just cannot face more tests and more heartbreak.

I determined to speak to the doctor on Thursday about all of this.  I refuse to run around like a headless chicken scaring the life out of everyone for two days.

Here's my new cream.  Tiny tube 15€ not reimbursed.

Today I'm grateful for the new cream