I worked all day from 9h to 16h and the taxi picked me up at work for the journey to the hospital. I waited a little while to be seen but the session passed quickly once I was seen with the experienced staff this evening; I was the last appointment of the day.
I was shocked to see when I looked at my side in the mirror in the changing room because my underarm and side are now very dark brown so the redness which is like a sunburn is really starting to have the appearance of a burn now. My lymph node scar has become ugly - angry red and brown and painful. I slathered on Biafine but the whole chest and breast is red, itchy and tingly.
I am exhausted and I have a stomach ache. I started cooking and my only big casserole dish exploded on the cooker with the food in it, I was already crying with what, I don't know, tiredness, fed up-ness, emotion, pain, I just don't know, when the children came back from the pool. They saw I was sad immediately and gave me huge hugs and kisses, dh didn't, he sounded like he'd had enough of me, which made me sadder. I just wanted a hug. He just kept saying 'what's wrong, what's wrong?'
Today I'm grateful for the support of my colleagues at work, although I did a day's work fair and square, but they are understanding and I'm grateful for the fact that GG was too tired himself to chatter away on the way home so I could stare out of the window.
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