Radiotherapy # 4, 29 to go

A rainy day meant we arrived just in time.  No need to stress as the machine was out of order.  I overheard a manipulator telling a fellow patient that they'd left a message for him not to come as they couldn't administer a treatment.  I must have groaned out loud as she looked at me and said 'it's ok we can take you on the other machine'.  So, I waited and eventually they called me up into the blue room instead of the yellow room and placed me on the machine.

It took ages for them to get me in the correct position on the machine and consulted with their colleagues.  I was glad that they took so long to get it right and didn't just think 'oh fuck it, it's about right, let's push the button and get it over with'.

Anyway it was a really long session and my left arm and shoulder really hurt afterwards as I was in position so long.

I then saw the doctor who was just checking in as to how I was doing.  I said it was weird having a therapy where you couldn't feel anything.  She said 'yes, you said the same thing last week!'  Well, I said, it must still be weird alors.  She said but you must be feeling something and I explained what I was feeling, electric shocks in my breast and painful and thickening and heat in the breast.  She said it was all normal.

She also reassured me that the rays should not touch my heart, maybe touch my lungs but not much and they were not dangerous if they were touched a bit.  Hmmm, hope not.

Then GG took me home.  He was on time today and didn't depress me with his cancer stories but he did tell me about his time on Prozac.  Man that guy really needs to see a psychologist!

Today I am grateful for the help of the pharamacy who helped me locate the reccomended soap that is non agressive to the skin and means that the skin has no chemicals on it before the treatment begins, thus helping to avoid burns (photo below).  I mentioned that I really liked a particular brand - Bio by Nuxe (they were advertising it on the counter) so the pharmacian gave me some testers for other products by Nuxe which I'm looking forward to trying.