Decision

I know not everyone agrees with this but I've chosen to go for Option 1 because

- having found out I have cancer is enough pain to bear let alone losing one breast and waiting a year for the full reconstruction.  I cannot do it even though it is 'only' a year out of my life, I feel it would mark me very badly psychologically.

- I feel I should give the first option a chance because if it works then that would be absolutely great.

- It would be nice to have a lifted, same-size pair of breasts, cancer free, for the future.

- I keep my nipples

- I would be ok if there is radiation treatment that follows although it's not going to be a laugh

Things I'm worried about

- it doesn't work, the margins are not clear - it will be very stressful waiting for a new set of results especially when I'm recuperating
- it prolongs the length of treatment as the next op cannot be earlier than 3 months later bringing us to Christmas already
- the op will go wrong
- it will take ages to get better and there will be complications

And there's always the lymph nodes to complicate matters of course

And it's still shit that I have to do this flippin operation anyway, by the way.