Cancer has changed my life for the better NOT!

I'm still kicking against 'cancer changed me life for the better' - the LB told me someone had expressed this very eloquently in one of the group meetings.  I wanted to say 'you know how cancer has changed my life?'

- it's made me frightened of hugging my children in case I hurt myself
- it means I can't bend down to kiss them goodnight in their beds
- it's given me a complex and made me terrified about going out of the house
- it's made me scared of meeting people I know
- it's made a whole wardrobe of lovely clothes redundant
- it's taken away my self confidence
- it makes me put out my arms to protect myself when anyone comes near me in case I get hurt
- it's made me frightened full stop
- it's taken away my belief that I'm a lucky person
- it's taken away any hope of a sex life or of feeling sexy in future
- it makes me cry every single day
- it's frightened my family and friends
- it has made me bitter and angry

So, you see I'm quite far off the radar of the serene, tranquil, self caring, better person.