With a little help from my friends

So how can I say this differently without risking repeating myself?

Today, my first day on my own since the op, I was nervous how things were going to go as I had had a Big Cry Session last night about things and was hoping it wouldn't shape my day.

I received a call from Miss Texas; we had a good chat, text from St L saying that the Scottish Cook was coming over with lunch.  I was really looking forward to it - the Scottish Cook came from far far away and brought her finest curry and tonnes of other stuff including curry and food and green tea and books and sweets and Orangina for the children and ironing perfectly folded from herself and from two v kind ladies whom I have never even met.  And not to mention her good cheer and commonsense which was just what the dr ordered.

The excellent curry, just to make your mouth water...

Tonight, another text from St L telling me who was passing with lunch tomorrow plus texts from Little Sis, neigbours who are tomorrow taking the children to school and picking them up in the evening.  Emails filled with love and understanding too, esp one from the Baker who has had her own struggle with body changes after cancer was discovered.  She knew exactly how I was feeling.

I don't like singling out specific people because this is only a typical day.  On another day, others will be passing by with food, magazines, DVDs, books, help in the house, taking away ironing, bringing shoppping, for a coffee, for a chat, taking me for a ride in the car, filling up my washing machine, sending me stuff in the post, presents, cards, oh the list seems endless.

All the people I know and love are giving their very best and as much as they can to make sure this old bird gets through all this sh**.

It begs the question of how can I ever thank them and how can I ever repay them?  I hope I've done some of that in the past, I believe that random acts and selfless of kindness not expecting a return and thinking about people are very important, (dh has often said I am 'too kind') but hopefully this has  served me well in my hour of need.  But right now I feel I have been given so much that the scales are definitely on my side right now, so when I'm stronger I need to tip the karma scales back to level.  It may not be the people who have been kind to me this time around, it may be towards others, but I think what goes around comes around in the world.  BE KIND!

Although, I am having problems deciding if cancer is part of that karma cycle and why it came my way.  Maybe you just have to be the best person you can in life and because you try, then there are others willing to carry you through the bad times and that's the karma return, and the cancer has nothing to do with that, it's just a shitty thing that happens?

So here's the song in my head right now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBDF04fQKtQ